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| So I was watching Pirates of the Caribbean and I realized that when Norington asks Elizabeth to be his wife, he's waaaaaay older than her. Like in the beginning of the movie she's about what? 8 right? Norington is already grown up. That's pretty nasty. Just a thought.
Anyways, I was thinking today while I was climbing. I love that I can tune the world out and just climb. I love that it's just you and the rock, that the problems that you face only you can solve. You can have everyone down below telling you what to do, but no matter what happens, it's only you and the rock. I like that it comes down to your strength and determination and only that to climb the rock. I also like that it isn't beating the rock, but winning over the climb. In the end, it's about seeing a solution to a problem, not beating the rock face.
So my schedule for the next several weeks is gonna suck big time. They got me workin' these long hours and I don't have a lot of free time, which means not a lot of time to work on climbing. I've been working out as much as I can, trying to get into the best shape that I can. I just hope my Sweetie appreciates it 
No poem today, kinda tired sorry, maybe tomorrow
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| Hey all,
Hope this finds you in good health. I know it's been forever since I've written in this, but let's face it, who's surprised about that? Exactly.
Anywho, Summer has been going rather slowly. My job isn't the best in the world and so that's been adding to the frustration of the summer. In fact, my job really sucks. Most of the people that I work with I just don't really connect with and they have us doing tasks that are compellingly stupid. It's just a crappy job.
On the plus side, Jenna came to visit me a few weeks ago and we got to go to the Corning Museum of Glass and Niagara Falls. We also went to see the Devil Wears Prada (Freakin' awesome movie, totally suggest it). It was so great having her here for those few days, it was like the perfect summer days. I could really see myself doing that with her, like I could just see that working out for us. It was great.
Then we went back home to Binghamton. For those of you living in a hole, there was some major flooding in Binghamton and the river ended up being up about 30 feet from where it usually is. There was a lot of damage to the homes back there and I just wanted to go home and help a little bit (and make sure my fokes were okay). My family was fine, we only got a few inches of water in the basement. Some other families were much worse off than us. A friend of our family's house was completely flooded and we spent a good part of our day working with him. We also helped another family out cleaning their house (the water level was up to about the 3 foot mark on their first floor) and it was just so much damage. It was really bad. Thank God Jenna came with us, she totally helped out the people that were there, speaking to their need of a friendly ear. Us guys like to attack the heavy lifting and tend to forget the people that it effects, Jenna totally stepped up to the plate on that one. You know, I totally fell in love with her all over again when I saw her doing that.
After those few days back home we came back to Rochester for the evening (it was July 4th) and watched the Fireworks from the top of Ellingson. It was really cool seeing all the different displays way out in the distance. The next day we got back in the car and drove back to Cleveland to visit with her family. I got to meet a ton of them. Now normally families are my strong suit, like I can rock the family like it's my job. But for whatever reason, I was as nervous as a long tailed cat in a room full of rocking chairs. I've never felt that nervous before. It kinda freaked me out a little bit. I think my major saving grace was that Jenna and I took her neighbor's kids to the zoo one day and I really loosened up at that point. (What can I say, I'm good with kids) We had a ton of fun the entire time I was down and I'm really glad that I got to meet the family. It was also really nice just spending time with her fokes. I liked getting to know them and they seemed genuinely interested in getting to know me. I also think that they're starting to like me. Makes me feel better knowing that I kinda have family support.
Anyways, I came back to Rochester last monday cause I had to work. It was so great spending time with Jenna and her family that I just didn't want it to end, but I have a job that I need to work at. I went rock climbing all this past week. Rock climbing has been my new thing lately, I just can't get enough of it. It's so relaxing and fun and it's a great work out and I feel great and yeah, I love it. We also had our judicial for Phi Delt this past week. The decision got overturned, so we're getting our house back. Still waiting for the official though, so I'm a little nervous, but not as much as before
Then Friday came and with that evening so did my Sweetie They had to close her apartment, so I got to spend some more time with her. We spent the last few days making out and packing boxes and packing the truck up. Even though they had to leave early, it was nice to visit with them a little bit and help out as much as I could. I really love spending time with them and spending time with my Sweetie. I can see things working with this one.
You know, I've had a sketchy past with the number of girls I've dated and all the crazy stuff that I've done, but college has helped to grow some of those behaviors outta me. I still do stupid things, but the essance of who I am has not been so buried in all the other things that get in the way and I feel like a better person for that. I don't know, just a thought. Anyways, I'm kinda tired, I'm gonna hit the sack, but I'm gonna try and write in this thing tomorrow. G'night all.
Rock Climbing
Boldering and Laterals are what I like to do
Spending hours on the face, just the rock and you
Sweating till I'm soaked and working like a mutt
So my girlfriend can watch my amazing, tight butt 
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| So it's only been a week since Jenna left. I'm dying...
I really thought that this past week went slower than molasses on a January morning. I thought it was a least two weeks that have gone by. Not so much. Only 7 days. Ugh. Can this summer go a little slower? Don't answer that.
I went rock climbing a few days ago over at the Red Barn. It was a blast. I went with Brendon, Pyle and Josh and we all have memberships there now. We're thinking about going a few times a week for the rest of summer. I was definately sore the next day but it felt really great. I'm hoping to get into shape this summer, maybe bulk up a little bit.
Work has been going rather slowly. Not a lot to do at the office and I don't really think we're all "jell-ing" together as I was hoping we would. I think part of it is just my sense of humor. Pete's the only one that really gets it and even then it's hit or miss a lot of the time. I wish it was a little more fun, but whatever, it's work. I'm working a whole bunch this upcoming week, which is kinda nice, but kinda sucks too. Whatever, it's work.
Okay, I've got a hugh headache and I'm missing my Sweetie like something fierce, so I leave you all with this:
Irish Proverb
There are many good reasons to drink
And one more just jumped into my head
If you don't drink when you're alive
How the hell are you gonna do it when you're dead?
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| So yeah....Started working the Housing gig. It's not too bad, kinda easy work and it really doesn't require a lot of thought, but it's work. Helps to break the days down into bit size portions and make the summer seem to pass that much easier.
Spent part of the day snagging a bike. See, the bikes that are left on the bike racks are going to be thrown out, unless the building is occupied, so me and a few friends snagged them before they were pitched out. Gotta get an air pump for the tires, but it's a pretty good bike, hopefully it'll help me stay in shape this summer. Gonna hit the gym tomorrow with Pyle, start our "getting sexy" program. Gotta look amazing for the girl in the fall.
Speaking of the girl, Jenna left saturday for home. I didn't want her to see it at the time, but it was tough. Definately let a few tears slip out later when I was all alone. I just wanted to run after her but at the same time knew that I couldn't. She's going home and I have to stay here, that's just the way it is right now. I'm kinda mixed bag about it. I mean it really sucks, like REALLY SUCKS, but at the same time, we knew it was coming and got to spend an extra week together and all that jazz, so I don't know. I just wish she was here again so I could hear about her day, tell her about mine, see that smile again. I miss that...you know, that smile that is just like a sunrise just for me, like a moment of life sliced out just for me. That's something I really miss, those "just for me" moments. Like, I found an old letter while I was cleaning today and it had a bunch of things that someone had listed as stuff that she liked that I did and the funny thing was, there wasn't anything unique on that list. Like, it listed very generic things and that's the beauty of this relationship I'm in now, there's nothing generic about it. There are some many unique characteristics to this relationship, it's like it's a new thing all together. I really like it...like REALLY LIKE IT.
Anyways, I had a friend call me and want to hang out, which was cool, except that she's like a total drama queen and I really don't have the strength to deal with any of that right now. I'm having a bit of a rough time, the girl I love just left to go back home FOR THE NEXT THREE MONTH; I'm a little sensative and I don't need other people's problems right now. Sorry, but I can't/won't deal with other people's drama right now, when my better half gets back, we'll chat, till then, buzz off. I just need a week or so to get use to this living arrangement and then I'll be good. God I miss her. I think about her all the time and really am praying that everythings gonna work out with the family and camp and just all that stuff....you know, that stuff stuff.
Okay, time for bed, work at 8 and I need sleep. Good night world, Good night My Sweet, Happy One Month. (What would my entry be without a poem?)
For Jenna:
Tears have fallen like a slow moving song
As I watched my love drive away
I know that the moment will come soon to sing
And bring joy and love on that beautiful day
But until that moment comes back into my life
I will sit here without an ounce of fear
For my Love is in the protection of my God
And He will soon bring back my Dear
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| Hey all,
So I'm sitting here at Jenna's place, taking care of her and I thought I'd write in this for a change. I know it's been like forever since I've written, but I figure I've got the time at the moment, mine as well right something.
Jenna's in bed, sicker than a dog. I feel for her, I know what it's like to be that sick and it really sucks. On the plus side, she's not going it alone, I'm gonne be here with her all night, right by her side. I know that is means a lot to her and her parents having someone here to watch over her and, I'll be honest, I like to have the opportunity to take care of her. I don't know if that makes me a bad person, or something like that, I don't think it does, but it just doesn't sound right when you type it out like that.
I got my grades for the quarter. Not as great as I was hoping, in fact, I'm a little bummed. I thought I did better this quarter then I actually did. My GPA is gonna take a bit of a hit this quarter, but it happens. I'm kinda mad that I got some lower grades in a few of my classes because my teacher's gave me no indication that I was doing poorly, in fact, they all gave my the impression that I was doing great. And then the grades hit. Whatever, I'm really quite done with school at this point. The politics of RIT are really getting to me and I can't stand to be around certain people. The arrogance of the judical committee disgusts me and I look forward to the day when they are no more. I feel that the lack of consistant action from the judicial department is appalling and I pray that someday it will be replaced by people who leave politics at the door and serve the greater good with just, unbiased judgement.
My fokes are coming up sunday to help me move into NRH. Still don't know what floor I'll be on but I think it's gonna be a good summer. I'm looking forward for the chance to just relax, get into shape and have a little fun without school getting in the way. Lately I've been feeling kinda burned out by everything, particularly my RA job. It just feels like there's too much of that going on and I'm tired of it. I'm glad that I officially stop being an RA today. It was a good run but I'm spent.
I can't believe that I graduate in just a year. It's kinda exciting and scary at the same time. I really don't know what I'm going to do when I graduate, but at the same time I can't wait. I'm gonna miss everyone here and I'm sure I'll get a little homesick for this place, but at the same time I get to start a new adventure. I get to see part of the country and take classes at a new place. I get to start over again. I kinda like the thought.
I just remembered that Jenna had said that she wasn't ready to settle down quite yet and that she was planning on moving a lot in the future. She makes it sound like she just wants to roam the world, which quite frankly, I like the idea. I'll admit at first I was a little frightened at the thought of jumping from place to place, not really having a place to root in, but the more I think about it, the more I feel that it might be a good thing for me. I feel like I've grown too fixed in one place and that I'm afraid to grow or move, but that if I keep moving I'll have the chance to grow and not be stunted by other people's problems. I realize that this is a cop out, but I'm not what else to do.
I've just been talking to a friend of mine and she's upset about the fact that everyone else is doing something and she has no one around her to make her feel special. I'm sorry that I've placed my girlfriend above you and your problems, but she needs me right now, more than you do. Quite frankly I'm tired of hearing about it. This happens everytime that she starts to feel a tad bit lonely, all of a sudden the world is a horrible place and no one loves her. I can't hold the world together, hell, I can't even hold myself together, I'm certainly not going to hold her together. I feel like at times people just don't understand that I've got a few things I'm trying to sort out in my life right now...like what happened at few months ago...and they're just not giving me the slack that I need to recover. I'm sorry that you feel that your life sucks, I really do, but there's nothing I can do to help you unless you want to help yourself. On top of that, I have responsibilities to myself and to others that I take very seriously and I hope that you understand those come first.
I'm sorry the tail end of this turned into a rant, but I just needed to get that out. I find it ridiculous the crap that I get from some people about taking care of my girlfriend. It would have been one thing if she had ranted after asking me about Jenna, but to just go off without any concern for others....that's the reason your alone sweetie. You don't care about how other people are unless it serves your best interests. You're gonna find that a true life of a christian is about service to others, not about service to yourself, and if you don't understand that, you don't understand the true devotion of Christ Himself. May the Lord bless your roads and change your heart.
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